I dont want this, I said, I dont want this!
With tears glistening in my sapphire eyes, my miserable voice echoed in the room, only to receive a glare from my mother.
Shut up, Eliana. Do you have any idea what the hell you are saying? Tomorrow is your wedding and that is final. She growled, pushing me away.
She refused to listen as we were being forced. My ex-boyfriend, Kyle, was threatening me to marry him.
And I couldnt because my heart belonged to someone else.
Please, try to understand, Mama, I cant!
Why!?
Why don’t you get it?! I just cant!
My black hair was messy, scattered over my back as I shook my head in denial, refusing to bind my life with a man I no longer loved.
It was all forced and unwanted on my side.
I didnt want this!
I cant do this, please, dont do this to me, Mama,
Whispering weakly, I wiped my gleaming tears and pleaded with her yet it was unheard. My tears or anger had no effect.
They were determined to make me marry Kyle which I didnt want at all cost, not when my feelings for him were non-existent.
Dear, please try to understand, that man is threatening your father. If you dont get married- what if he does something horrible?
She made a failed attempt to make me listen and obey quietly, to which I scoffed, folding my arms at my chest out of stubbornness.
I dont care,
What is wrong with you? Why are you doing this?!
Done with my whining, she grabbed my arm, losing her patience when I persistently declined their demand of forcing me into an undesirable marriage with an unstable man.
And to worsen my state, the door knocked and the man I least wanted to see came, causing my heart to skip a beat.
The one with ruthless silver eyes, hard features perfectly combed pitch-black hair, and a beard entered dominantly.
Not bothering to look at me, he called my mother.
Mrs. Duke,
Ah, Denzel, thank God, you are finally here. Please, make her listen, tell her to marry Kyle quietly,
She smiled in relief when the only person who could make me agree came and that fact brought a tear near my eyelids.
He wouldnt do that to me, right?
Narrowing my blue gaze, I wanted him to look at me which he didnt, inducing a strange ache as he approached us slowly.
I will,
What?
Pulling away, I grit my teeth in frustration, not accepting this as my fate.
Especially not when the one I wanted was before me!
When I have said I wont then I wont,
I declared in a hiss that made his jaw clenched, earning a flinch from me.
Your father is in the hospital because of the heart attack, stop being selfish at least now and-
Before she could use emotional attacks to force me to marry he cut her off by raising his one hand in the air and resting the other in the pocket of his black pants.
Mrs. Duke, calm down, I will talk to her. Please give us a few moments to be alone,
Okay
Shaking her head in disappointment, she didnt argue further and walked away as my body shivered when we were alone in my room.
The button of his white shirt was opened, revealing his toned chest and power with perfectly rolled sleeves.
He had always been devilishly handsome.
Liting up his cigarette, he rolled his eyes as if me or my feelings never mattered to him and stopped before me.
Hmm? What is your problem?
Wh- what?
Why dont you want to marry Kyle?
Releasing the smoke I hate, his tone demanded an answer but my chest constricted upon receiving such coldness from his side.
He is rich, he wants you, doing everything for you. He will keep you happy. Then what seems to be the issue?
How can you say this?
With a trembling posture and gaped mouth, I stared at him in disbelief as he spoke so heartlessly that my mind shut down.
You cant be serious. How can you allow this marriage to happen in the first place?
He smoked calmly as I weakly whimpered.
Stop it, stop him, stop this all, Denzel! I dont want this!
You are going to marry him and that is final,
No no,
With a tear coming near my eyelid, I whispered sorrowfully, praying he would understand.
I dont want him, I want you, Denzel,
But to no avail.
I am thirty and you are twenty-two, you are so much younger than me, Eliana. Plus, I have never seen you from a romantic perspective,
A tear rolled down my cheek followed by a cease functioning due to sorrow.
You and I were never anything, snap out of it,
What?
My misery, my feelings, nothing mattered to him. It failed to reach him.
How could he forget the moments we spent? Our time together? Wasnt I precious to him?
Then why did you come near me?!
Why did you touch me?!
Said those beautiful things to me?!
I whisper-yelled and was about to hit his chest for evoking emotion in me and now neglecting me like I never meant anything.1
Grabbing my wrist harshly, he looked down at me with no emotions in those dark eyes.
It was a mistake,
No
Unable to bear it, a few tears powerlessly rolled down, causing him to narrow his beautiful gaze.
Please tell me you are lying. You cant say this you- you cherish me, dont you?
His lock on me became harder before releasing it, draining me of energy, and leaving me vulnerable.
Please tell me you are lying, I will accept lies too but say I am not a mistake,
I grew desperate by the destruction surrounding me. My eyes sought compassion, sadly, I found none.
Still still, I wanted him to be mine.
To hold me.
Please dont break my heart, Denzel,
I am not here to hear your whining or about your needless love, Eliana. He scowled.
Pointing his finger outrageously at me to stop expressing my true feelings for him.
He had no intention of considering my emotions worthy.
In a heartbeat, everything fragmented.
But, why was he doing this?
Was everything a lie?
Did those moments never mean anything?
How could you do this to me, Denzel?
When I released more tears, he realized his action. He curled his hand in a powerless fist and came closer again.
Okay, I agree, Kyle is being a jerk right now but he will keep you happy, trust me, marry him.
No, no, no,
Listen, dammit,
NO!
I was on the verge of sobbing, glaring at him with tears, he was stabbing my heart with those ruthless statements.
He will be a much better man than I will be, Eliana, you must marry him,
Sighing, he was about to place his hand on my shoulder to convince me but I slapped it away.
I. Said. No, I growled.
Staring dead into his eyes that flickered a malevolence which doubled my perturbation.
He arched an eyebrow, probably giving me a moment to change my statement, when I didnt, he ended up chuckling darkly.
Holding his sides, he let out a tch, tch, tch, sound, shaking his head as I was bewildered by what happened to him.
You dont understand the language of affection, do you?
Smirking, he turned his head away and turned back with a darker, menacing glare that startled me endlessly as he grabbed my arm harshly, making me gasp in pain.
Denzel, leave me!
Now listen to me quietly, woman, I am not here to listen to your whining and refusals,
He was leaning dangerously closer to my face where our breaths almost mixed up, sending a deadly shiver down my spine.
He looked dead into my eyes and growled furiously.
I will drag you down the aisle myself if you resist, Eliana,
Failing to endure this ache, I ended up crying terribly and was about to place my hand on his chest.
Dont do this to me, Denzel, please, I love you-
AND I FUCKING DONT!
Frightening me by his yelling, he pushed me back.
Shattering my heart by his rejection I could feel an intense pain being shot through my chest.
It felt like my soul was being suffocated with tears gleaming in my eyes but everything was razed.
My dreams, my love, my expectations, my future, everything.
Because he never felt the same.
So you better seal those lips, do as your parents say, and marry Kyle Hudson quietly,
No, no, no, listen-
You damn well,
Denzel, please-
Giving me one last warning, his heavy steps retreated, leaving me in my room all alone to weep until I couldnt produce more tears.
No..!!
I was profoundly agonized at my fate where I was going to marry a man I dont love, by the man I love
The next day, dressed as a bride forcefully, I was holding my mothers arm desperately.
Mama, I will do anything you say, dont make me marry Kyle,
Do you think I want that? We have no choice, my love. Look at your father, only you can save him. She sighed.
Frowning when I was not moving an inch she secured the veil over my head.
I wanted them to listen, to understand that he wasnt the man I wanted.
The one I truly desired was the person who forced me to say yes.
Why couldnt he notice my love? My feelings for him? Why make me marry Kyle when I didnt want to?
Please I whimpered, clutching my chest due to pain and enhancing that sting, he entered with his cold front.
Wow, so he had dressed up for my fucking wedding too.
Unbothered expressions, wearing a black shirt and pants accompanied by a waistcoat and well-combed hair to look eye-catching.
My jaw clenched, glaring at him through the reflection which he obviously ignored, and asked Mother.
Are you guys ready?
No. I am not, I hissed, ripping the veil off from my head and throwing it away.
Displeased with my actions, he came closer. I flinched when without a second, he grabbed my wrist and made me stand.
I dont have time for your drama. Come,
I felt numb, I was drained, I couldnt do it but he forced me to move. My lips began to shake with tears blurring my vision.
Mama,
Please, please, please, stop him
Denzel, careful, please, Mother whispered, emitting compassion for me but how could I blame her?
There was nothing she could do. Kyle was too powerful we couldnt fight him.
Then tell her to accept her fate. This is the best for her but her tiny brain is incapable of understanding this,
Growling, he didnt bother to hear further and since my father was in the hospital, he decided to walk me down himself.
Like hell, I would let it!
Whimpering, I struggled to release his harsh grip but he had always been overwhelmingly strong, and nothing I did affected him.
Leave me, let me go!
Leave me, Denzel!
I said I dont want to,
Tired of my whining, he gave me a rough yank, pressing me against the wall.
My throat dries when his muscular body is lethally closer to mine. Sadly, those heartbeats were no longer latched with mine.
I shivered when he placed his one hand above my head and pressed his index finger on my lips with the other hand, freezing me in one contact.
Shut the fuck up, Eliana,
I obeyed
Silly me, after he had horribly broken my heart, I swayed by his one action.
What kind of attractive spell was it? It was almost like a connection with a soulmate. Did he feel the same-
Oh, what was I saying? If he had, he wouldnt be throwing me into fire.
Mhm-
Enough, Eliana, stop creating a damn scene.
Licking my lips anxiously, silent tears streamed as I held his wrist, pulling his hand from my lips down.
You stop it,
My misery was transparent yet he had become blind towards my anguish.
He couldnt hear how madly my heart was screaming his name.
How insensitively he backed away from me
You are no one to decide or force me into anything. Leave me, Denzel, dont do this to me. I whimpered, shaking my head in denial.
And my weak, delicate whisper infuriated him. He almost looked powerless and slammed his both hands on either side.
What is your problem!?
I responded breathlessly, Do you want me to die from the pain of marrying Kyle before you?
His anger faded at my comment.
What?
My mouth gaped out of incredulity when I sobbed a little, leaving the cage of his arms to cover my mouth and wipe my tears.
Even if you dont feel the same, I cannot bear marrying another man before you, I cried a little, taking support from the wall yet stumbled.
The heftiness was too much for my fragile soul as tears gleamed, and breaths restricted around my throat.
How can I marry another man when the one I love is before me?
Stop speaking nonsense, Eliana. You are about to marry Kyle, He whispered, forcing murder words from my tongue that caused me to snarl.
But, I feel nothing for him! I dont love him! I love-
Enough!
My tears, my words, my pain, nothing worked, nothing lessened my pain.
It was unbearable for me to hold Kyles hands, it would only be a nightmare for me.
Unfortunately, he comprehended nothing. Maybe I was never that important or close.
Neither these tears nor my confession mattered
Enough is enough,
Relaxing a little, he contemptibly pointed his finger at me along with a warning tone.
Dont spout nonsense,
It pierced a portion of my soul, igniting embers I never knew existed. It hurt a lot.
Never once I imagined he would abandon me
Nonsense.. huh?
Hanging my head low with endless gloom, I forced my sobbing to halt, staring at the ground- the place life threw me- for a few seconds.
That man had ZERO care about my anguish.
My life had fallen apart.
You-
Leave me. I wont go with you.
He attempted to grab me so he could drag my hollow soul to that fucking altar which I didnt allow.
You are not my father, you are a nobody, Denzel Reynold, I growled, pointing my finger at him in the way, praying his soul would burn too as I gathered my dress and moved back.
Okay, fine. Go with your mother, He scoffed.
Just, scoffed.
Once again, it meant nothing to him.
Rolling my eyes, I ran back to the dressing room, to my mother who was astonished to find me back.
What happened?
Why would he take me there? You are my mother, I will go with you,
But, you are so attached to him-
I dont care. I will go with you, I hissed, curling my hands in a fist to contain my powerlessness.
Okay,
Mother didnt think deeply about the reasoning and helped me to fix my form.
When she set the veil over my head again, she kissed the top of my head, heartbroken.
I am sorry, this is not how I imagined your marriage, my love,
Me too. But What can I say? Lets go and get over this, I sighed, giving her hand an assuring squeeze.
I was left with no choice, too empty to fake sadness at this point.
Bless you,
She smiled, wiping her tears as we left where the man I least wanted to see was waiting for me.
The scheming billionaire, Kyle Hudson. His blue eyes shone, brown hair flowed in the air while keeping a charming expression.
I got fooled once, but not again.
His usual manipulative aura surrounded him, earning a glare from me.
Wow, after destroying my life, and sending my father to the hospital, here he is,
The second I stepped forth, his face glowed, observing my helpless figure carefully, doubling the wrath flaring in me.
That bastard
Ah, there you are, Darling, I was impatiently waiting for you.
I wasn’t, I whispered furiously.
Ah, come on, You are looking absolutely stunning,
Grinning, he took my hand without offering, making me stand at the altar.
Keeping my hands caged in his, he pulled us closer, too much to my discontent.
Drop that sweet act after giving my father a heart attack, I muttered, rolling my eyes.
Do you think I did this deliberately?
Yeah, right,
I scanned the hall and fortunately, Denzel wasnt there. I seriously wouldnt be able to continue if he was there.
It stabbed me that after devastating me, here I was, incapable of marrying another man in his presence.
It was like he had taken shelter into my soul- Shut up!
If I had known he was weak-hearted, I wouldnt have come near him in the first place, He frowned, caressing my knuckles to convince me.
I dont need your explanations,
Okay, I am sorry, Baby. Lets place this behind us and start a new life, I promise I will give you all the happiness and keep you happy.
Murmuring, he kissed my hands, flashing a wide, toothy grin to convince me.
Not wanting to create a scene or infuriate him, I remained motionless as the ceremony started.
The worst point of my life.
If my heart hadnt belonged to someone else.
In that case, how could I fathom liberating a yes for an undesirable marriage?
Do you, Eliana Duke, take Kyle Hudson, as your lawfully wedded husband?
No, never, not anymore.
It took life-threatening force from me to say I do,- It shattered me.
Each second was heavy on my breaths, tears refilled, and suffocation took over me. Invisible fetter defeated me and it was not from Kyles actions.
But, Denzels.
When I never meant anything then why did he hold my hand?
Just to leave me on another mans mercy?
I was overwhelmingly outraged at Denzel, hating myself for loving a man like him who left me here.
Whatever the reason was, my life was destroyed.
All because of him.
I pronounce you as the husband and wife. You may now kiss the bride,
And then came the unbearable declaration that immobilized my very soul, to contemplate the lowest my life had reached.
My body shivered at the announcement. My eyes went wide from heartache, jaw-dropping with a throbbing headache.
A strong rush of pain traveled, making me incapable of reacting.
I was dying for this moment, you are finally all mine now, Mrs. Hudson,
What the fuck did just happen in a moment?
I got married to someone else?
No, I must be imagining.
It had to be a nightmare, else, I wont be myself anymore.
Ah, my beautiful bride,
I stood like a statue when he lifted my veil and without a warning pressed his lips upon mine to display his ownership over me.
I didnt kiss back, it was cold, it was horrible.
I hated the way those lips moved upon mine, satisfying his carving followed by a tear of defeat because-
My love lost. My feelings were lost. I lost.
After the undesirable kiss, we pulled away. I wiped my lips which Kyle noticed but he was too exhilarated and decided to ignore it.
Just like my consent to this unasked marriage.
Please take care of my daughter, Mother wept, hugging me while I stood dead inside.
I know I took a wrong approach but I will try my best to redeem my mistake,
Kyle grinned, placing his hand over my shoulder to press me against his chest with a heartbreaking question.
Arent you going to meet Denzel? In fact, where is he? He is close to you after all,
I replied immediately, I dont want to see him,
Come on, dont say this. He was there for you always. Bid him goodbye. I am waiting for you,
He smiled, patting my back to go and see the man who threw me into this abyss in the first place.
At that moment, a flame burned in my chest.
I felt a sting, an unendurable one. A constriction I hadnt experienced before that evoked nothing but wrath.
Hmph, meet him, huh?
When Kyle told me to meet him, I didnt want to. I was afraid to see him at the last moment, seeing him would flare my soul.
I couldnt do it, especially not after becoming another mans wife.
But, if I didnt, that would evoke suspicion and double the rage in my hollow chest so unwillingly, I went and saw him all alone in the corridor.
Leaning his back against the wall, staring coldly at his hands, enhancing his handsome features, immersed in thoughts.
So careless, so uncaring, so cold.
Denzel,
Calling him sternly, I gathered my dress and walked up to him as we stopped before each other as strangers.
Eliana?
His piercing resonance came. Still no expression on his desirable face and that brought a tear near my eyes.
Still no feelings? I thought with a wretched heart.
Everything that used to exist, what I imagined for us perished when I stood before him as a married woman.
My whole life was destroyed
Hugging my sides, I lowered my gaze painfully, gritting my teeth to contain my emotions but failed, my soul was being torn apart as I hissed.
Is this what you wanted huh?
I did what should be done, you and I were never a match. He exhaled, pinching the bridge of his nose.
To show that he was becoming tired of explaining the same thing to me.
How easy it was for him to neglect me and my feelings.
With my smeared emotions, I came closer, grabbing his shirt.
Never a match huh?
Glaring dead into his eyes with heartbreak spreading widely as I told him the undeniable reality.
But, my heart is burning with your name, Denzel,
You are someone elses wife now,
Exactly. That is why.
His mouth gaped, placing his hand gradually over mine to stop me from chasing his path but I wouldnt have if he hadnt invited me.
After pouring my everything, I gained nothing.
You are a liar, disloyal, and the worst person ever,
A tear rolled down my cheek as my steps stumbled, leaning against the wall, it was serving as a support which I hopelessly required in this suffocating moment.
There was a little distance between us and this was augmenting my anguish.
How could you do this to me, Denzel? Wasnt I precious to you?
Sniffling to suppress my crying, I dug my nail into my arm to contain my emotions and not scatter.
Again, received piercing silence as a reply. Closing my eyes, after being heartbroken, I took a deep breath.
How easy was it for you to make me marry Kyle despite knowing all my feelings are for you?
I said it was a mistake-
No, it was not and you fucking know it! I snapped, hitting his chest.
You knew everything, you were well aware of my love and after being done with me, you threw me to Kyle, huh? I growled, losing my composure.
Look. Its nothing like this. He sighed.
His insensible demeanor was testing my patience at this point.
Stop your lies. Just to save your bond with your fucking girlfriend Gizelle, you threw me out of the way, you selfish bastard,
Think whatever you want,
How cruel
Wiping my tears and regaining my posture, I was staring at him with mixed emotions of disbelief and betrayal while he was unaffected.
As we were staring at each other, lost in our own perception, the different chains that ripped us apart, Kyle came, breaking the brief moment.
Eliana? There you are. Are you guys done?
Causing me to come back to reality and realize that I was wearing the ring of his name now.
There was no place for Denzel in my life then why was I hurting too much for him?
Denzel, where were you during the ceremony? I didnt see you,
Congratulations and I was there. You were just too focused on her, Denzel replied in his dominant tone, giving Kyle a side hug.
I guess so.
He chuckled before turning to me, Come, baby, lets go then,
Nodding, I was about to go but Denzel stopped Kyle, bewildering me.
Kyle,
Hmm?
Take care of Eliana, He spoke sincerely, inducing an intolerable pain in my chest.
How could he possibly say this after shattering my heart?
Of course, dont worry. He grinned, showing him a thumbs up but now I couldnt bear it.
Holding Kyles sleeves, I used a fake charming tone.
Kyle, can you grab my bag? Is it with my mother, please? I will be there in a moment,
Sure. Be quick, I am waiting,
Okay,
The second he left, I darted in his Denzel, confused when I made him Kyle. My throat felt like burning, my mind was submerged in despondency.
And when all of it failed to reach him- it burned me more.
Like hell I would leave with anguish now.
What is still left to talk about? Denzel asked coldly.
Lighting up his cigarette before resting his hand in his pockets to forge a strong posture.
I wont forget what you have done to me. How you have betrayed my feelings and emotions, Denzel, I growled.
Poking his chest with my index finger, not removing my disappointing gaze from his and cursing him sincerely.
I pray you never get the one you love too,
I hope you suffer for the one you love,
I wish your heart breaks terribly,
Leaving him astonished, with an immense feeling of being disheartened, my steps retreated.
Shaking my head accompanied by a tear as I gave him the final curse.
Curse you and your life, Denzel Reynolds,
Look where the desire to have you left me in my life..? I just wanted you, Denzel. And you were the only person who left me,
After eradicating his name from my heart and cruising his life for what he had done to me, I went back.
It was crushing me, it was weighing too much on me.
I wasn’t mentally prepared to become a wife, not Kyles.
It was never on my list and all of it was heavy for me but I was left with no choice. He had left me and whoever it would be now wont make a difference.
Sorry, I am back, I called, coming back to where he was waiting for me in his Rolce Royce, leaning against it while trying to convince my mother.
I promise I will be good- Done? Lets go now,
Flashing his fake smile, he opened the door for me. I glared at him and turned back to Mother who gave me a pitiful look.
What could it do? Nothing.
I want to see my father first, I demanded seriously, getting in the car while he was setting my dress and grinning.
We are going there anyways,
I rolled my eyes and accidentally found him in the middle, far away but somehow my eyes managed to catch his attention.
When our eyes met, an unbearably strange yet throbbing sensation traveled to my core, I couldnt understand but it was hard to cope with.
Denzel,
Still after cursing him, I mouthed inaudibly his name before leaving.
Was everything a lie? Why did you protect me when you couldnt call me yours? Who was I to you?
Staring outside, I thought painfully. I wanted to scream but couldnt as suffocation had restricted me from doing so.
After we left, all that remained was a scar. And it was hurting, badly, very badly.
I wish you could have told me what made you do this,
Releasing a tear, It was pointless to ask a question he couldnt answer. Amid this pain and feeling of betrayal, I noticed Kyle.
He was smiling widely, staring intensely at me with a never-ending smile for having- stealing what he wanted- like always.
Why are you bothering to act now? I muttered, twirling my fingers around my dress, becoming anxious by the way he shifted closer.
I am not acting. I truly want you. He murmured, taking my hands and kissing my knuckles, disturbing my whole functioning.
Stop it. Just, stop it.
But, I dont. Not anymore after everything you have done to me, Kyle, I hissed, yanking my hand away from his unwanted ones.
Please, Eliana, dont do this. I love you, He told me in a warning tone.
Closing my eyes, I didnt have the strength to continue anymore so I merely hummed in response and left for my new home, with my husband after meeting my father.
This is it, Eliana. Your new life. Just you and your husband.
I spoke to myself, staring at my reflection, in the beautifully embellished room with a frown. My wedding night was a moment to create and start a memorable bond.
You have no idea I wanted you to give your body, your soul, your emotions up to me, Eliana,
Still, you rejected me after saying those words, Denzel.
No, no, what the hell am I thinking? Snap out of it.
My body shivered when I remembered his touching me, freezing my steps, scaring me to wonder how Kyle would react. I couldnt possibly tell him.
What should I do now? I cursed under my breath, throwing the veil away and taking deep breaths.
Placing my hands over the ledge, I gulped hard until the creaking sound of the door came, indicating he had come to claim the prize he won in this charade of power.
His money, his power, everything won against us.
Swallowing hard, I didnt dare to turn until his large hand gripped my shoulder and nibbled on my ear.
Finally,
Humming seductively, he froze my whole being, leading his lips down to my neck as I stood still, motionless when his hands snaked around my waist.
What? Not going to stop me? I am going to kiss your neck now, He mumbled, placing his chin on my shoulder to tease me.
Acting all lovey after forcing me.
You are my husband. No matter how unfavorable or what depraved method you have used to marry me, I spoke coldly, glancing over my shoulder.
Hey, hey, dont say this now. I am sorry.
He chuckled, digging his hand into my waist to warn me to watch my words unless I wanted to provoke his beastly side.
Sorry for what? For giving my father a heart attack. For forcing me into this marriage? Or for hurting me? I whispered vaguely, nibbling my bottom lip anxiously.
You know I didnt mean to hurt you in any way, neither physically nor emotionally, He sighed, pressing out lower bodies, embracing me tightly from behind.
To show that he owned me now and wouldnt let anyone or anyone interfere between us.
Lets place this behind us and become one. I will love you like always, come back to me, baby, He whispered temptingly, leading his hand to my back, and unzipping my dress.
A deadly sensation went to my core, knowing he wouldnt settle until consummating and wont listen to my excuse either so giving up to fate, I looked down.
Do you see another option before me?
Unwillingly, painfully, heartbroken, after being rejected by him, I gave up and chuckled with a helpless tear rolling down.
Good,
***
The next day, bearing an aching pain in my body due to last nights event. We were married, and I couldnt avoid him forever, he wouldnt let it anyway.
How cold it felt how unwanted it was.
And carrying that weight, I started my life as his wife with a dead heart.
After taking a shower, I put on an expensive dress, and makeup to enhance my features until he also woke up and pulled me to his chest.
Morning, beautiful,
Hmm. Come down. I am starving, lets have breakfast. I replied, applying my lipstick.
He leaned down to kiss but placing my hand in the middle, I got back, Lipstick, not smudge proof.
Using a dead tone, I went down, not preferring unasked intimacy, and got down. He didnt think much thankfully and came down.
We were having breakfast, I lost my appetite.
Twirling my fork around my food, I was staring into nothingness until I saw Kyle giving me a questionable look.
I muttered, forcing a bite down, What happened?
Nothing, I just didnt know you werent a virgin. When did that happen? He chuckled nervously. I knew he would ask.
What should I tell him?
It was… Just a sin, an immoral act. I was drunk. It.. made a mistake, I lied immediately, swallowing hard in dread.
He mustnt know about it.
Who is your first? I am genuinely curious, He smirked, knowing I wasnt much involved with boys.
My heart skipped a beat, it was painful mentioning the most beautiful moment I shared with Denzel and calling it wrong, hiding it.
I told you I was drunk. I dont remember. It was a mistake, after our breakup,
It felt like two soulmates met and now calling it a mistake.
Oh okay, I thought you were going to say you did it to take revenge on me, He chuckled but I glared at him.
Can we not talk about it?
To my glare he chuckled, pinching my cheek, enunciating the harsh fate I was thrown into.
Okay, we are married anyway. No one can come between us anymore. We are going to be together. Just you and me,
Laughing, he got up and walked away as I remained still. My lips started to tremble. It was hard to accept this reality.
Cascading my eyes to my empty hands, I was only left with questions.
When you called me your mate then how could you let me marry another man, Denzel? Wasnt I more important than your girlfriend?
Just why did you do this?
With a heavy pain in my chest, I started my married life where my consent didnt matter, where my feelings were meaningless.
What a pathetic bond
My eyes were cold, my hands were empty, nothing to hold onto left anymore anyway. Everything had turned to dust.
Submerged in my thoughts, I was hugging my knees on the bed with an empty side as my husband came out after taking a shower, taking out his office attire.
Eliana, listen. I have to leave right now, I am sorry,
He spoke apologetically, hastily getting ready but I had zero concerns about that.
Look, I dont mean to leave you after marriage but I have a really urgent meeting, I will be back soon.
He smiled sweetly, coming closer to kiss the top of my head before pulling away. Forming my lips in a thin line, I nodded.
Its alright,
I failed to force a smile too
After he left, I dug my nail into my skin, jaw clenching. The sensation of his touch was unwanted.
I didnt want it to replace my mistakes, I wanted them to sting, to remind me of what I did.
Of my foolishness.
It doesnt matter, Eliana, it doesnt,
Sighing in disappointment, I shook my head and got out of bed to freshen up and pass my time which went by devilishly slow.
All the wrong thoughts were coming to me.
Dammit, dammit, Growling, I paced around, holding my sides from frustration but after lunch, Kyle returned.
Hey,
Regaining my cold posture, I replied coldly, Hey,
Lets go out tonight,
I became hesitant, Um, Kyle, I am tired please, can we go another day?
Sure. We have our whole lives for it,
Thank you,
He smiled, not minding it as he pinched my cheek and continued playfully.
Though I hope you are not angry at me for leaving,
No, I understand you have work.
He seemed delighted that I apprehended his state but deep down, I was only wishing to maintain as much as possible distances with him.
I wanted him out, I didnt want him.
Not after what he did to me
He had ruined my life, from getting into a relationship to marrying me, he had destroyed everything.
I would never give him a chance.
Yet being forced to carry out that undesirable binding, a week passed and only I knew how painfully I had spent those moments.
My chest was constricting, my mind was barely working, and depression took over me in a period of a week.
But, from this cage, I found a path for reprieve.
Father is discharging today, Kyle. Can I go home?
Sure. I will pick you up on my way home, okay?
Thank you,
I went home, hastily rushing to my parents room to see my father who wasnt even present at my own wedding. I was cursing Kyle for leading my father at this point as I mindlessly slammed the door open.
Only to find the most unwanted man with him, helping him to sit and take his medicines.
I felt horrible when I saw how weak he looked. It pricked me.
Careful, Mr. Duke,
Thank you for helping me, Denzel,
Its alright,
Wow, after throwing me into a fire, he was acting like a nice guy?
Gritting my teeth in his presence, I ignored him and came to my father.
Papa!
Ah, my princess!
Grinning, he opened his arms for me and I hugged him tightly.
How are you now?
Better after seeing you. How are you? Is everything okay? Is he treating you right? I was worried sick, He whispered, cupping my cheeks from utter perturbation.
And before I could speak something, complain how horrible all of it was for me, he spoke up first.
Dont worry, Mr. Duke. Kyle might have used a wrong action but his intentions werent wrong. He loves our Eliana and will take good care of her,
Dont you fucking dare to use our for me now? I thought furiously, glaring at him warningly.
You dont say, I hissed, rubbing Papas back before pulling away.
Did you two have a fight? I have never seen Eliana being angry with you,
I wasnt present at the ceremony. You dont worry, I will talk to her,
He spoke in a charming tone as if everything apart from me was too precious and important to him.
But, I have nothing to talk to you,
Scowling at this point, I walked out of the room, not wanting to spend a second in his presence which was suffocating me.
It was shattering my heart to fathom how he neglected me and made me marry someone I didnt want.
He had hurt me intensely.
I was in the corridor, pressing my teeth to not burst as he approached me steadily in his dominant and dangerous posture.
Stop creating drama before your father. He mustnt receive any stress. He growled, pointing his finger at me to stop my drama.
And what about the distress you threw on me, huh?
Snap out of it, Eliana. Forget what happened between us. He sighed, once again in disappointment, even rolling his eyes.
It was not supposed to occur in the first place. I have a girlfriend too, did you forget?
My mouth gaped, hitting his chest but he didnt bother to bulge.
Where was this girlfriend when you touched me, asshole?
Instead, becoming enraged at my statement, his large hand grabbed my arm roughly.
Freezing my steps to the ground he placed his index finger on my lips, scaring me with his one malicious glare.
Shut up. Someone will listen,
My body quivered when I removed his hand, making an almost crying face.
You used me for your pleasure, didnt you, Denzel?
Irritation crept on his handsome features, releasing my body from his heat with an exasperating resonance.
Its nothing like this, Eliana. I am only doing what is good for you. Erase me from your heart, I was never the one for you,
My jaw dropped, hitting his chest as I ended up yelling from anguish.
How can you say this after taking my virginity, dammit!?
Shh. Someone will listen. He scowled, twisting my arm to not create a scene after he had ruined my life.
Nothing. Literally, nothing mattered.
A tear hopelessly rolled down my cheek, realizing the images he showed me, the side he displayed was nothing but a mirage.
You dont care, do you? None of it means anything to you, I whimpered, losing my breath, on the verge of crying for falling for a man like him.
He paused, releasing me instantly, tone slightly softening, Eliana, we have been over this. Its not like this-
With discouragement coming to me, I shook my head in denial, refusing to believe in a man like him anymore.
You used me, Denzel
He opened his mouth but no justification could alter his actions or words. He never loved me, he took advantage of me.
Everyone was right about him, he was not worthy to be loved
You used me and I wont forgive you for it,
With a crushed hope and heart, I ran away, wanting to be away from him because each time I would see him, it would shatter me.
He lied. All those words, smiles, promises, touches.
All of it was a terrible deception.
I hate you, I hate you so much, Denzel Reynold,
Unable to bear his presence, I avoided him for the rest of the day and came back to the cage. At this point, I had no other option left.
What happened? Did you see your Father? Kyle asked sweetly at night. We both laid down to sleep but he was in another mood.
Hmm
He tried to kiss my neck but I stopped him by placing my hand in between.
Kyle, please, I am disheartened and sad after seeing Father, I am not in the mood. I hope you understand,
Oh, okay, good night, sweetheart, He smiled reassuringly.
Kissing my back before turning his back and we both faced the wall, lost in our own thoughts.
Hugging the sheets close to my chest I stared into nothingness with an unbearable sting on my chest.
I almost ripped my duvet by pulling it too tightly.
It was so damn painful.
When he felt nothing then why did he do this? Why did he latch his heart with mine? Why did he take things so far? Why?!
Staring into nothingness with a shattered heart, my mind willingly stopped to those days when it all started.
Remembering the unfortunate time when I met him
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